P0ignanT ThoughtS

motherhood

�FaLLeN|AnGeL� — Sat, 21 Feb 2009 15:04:49 GMT

[ Mood: Happy ]
[ Currently: Eating \ ]
motherhood for me is exactly what made me change for the better of course, other than the responsibility that comes with it, it's a total package, meaning, no matter how tired you are, at the end of the day, when i look at my poker-faced-baby (har har har), all stress or probs are totally forgotten ... it's not exactly a bed of roses either, i'm pretty sure there's a lot out there who can exactly relate to what i'm talkin about ... no matter how awful life is to everyone, happiness is not attained by getting what we need or want in life but more of how we stand up from whatever made us stumble and fall ... ... who makes me strong amidst every downfall other than GOD of course (tama ba grammar ko?), it's my kid, against all odds the one who understands me most "JULIE", and the one whom i always turn to "MY FAMILY."

worth the risk

�FaLLeN|AnGeL� — Tue, 01 Apr 2008 12:50:22 GMT

[ Mood: Hypnotized ]
[ Currently: Working ]
it's been a long time since the last one i posted here but reading back my thoughts ... there's this post that made me smile.
coz i once wrote about a guy whom i thought that having a relationship with him was too farfetched ... but it really wasn't, we risked it all and now we have a baby and i'm not regretting anything that happened between us.
i know our story wasn't exactly a bed of roses but all through that, he never left me or made me feel there was nothing for him or for both of us.
it wasn't easy going through it all but he was worth the risk ...
people talk behind our backs but that's normal, their words can't bring our strong relationship down

can't get my eyes off him ...

�FaLLeN|AnGeL� — Thu, 24 May 2007 09:56:00 GMT

[ Mood: Confused ]
[ Currently: Listening to i duno wtf is the title ]
What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off you

Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of

You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive ...

it's sad to know that you like this person that much and yet you're already committed to someone, indeed, it's sad to belong to someone else when the right one comes along ... and even if i don't have a boyfriend yet, it would still be very impossible for us to be together ... and im really trying hard to keep him off my mind and staying away from him ... i know this aint love yet but somehow you can't help getting attracted to another guy if you're partner is far away from you ... been trying to resist, keeping myself tempted ... and this guy makes me feel really special, maybe this guy is my soulmate but we can't be together ... not in this lifetime

squealer ...

�FaLLeN|AnGeL� — Mon, 13 Mar 2006 18:04:20 GMT

[ Mood: Confused ]
[ Currently: Eating ]
i don't know if i did the right thing ... the question now is why did i do it?

honestly, coz i didn't like it when i found out the truth when she told me it was for us ... when in fact she has no authority to get that stuff there ... it was pretty early then and i was shocked to know from someone she was doin it for over a few times already ... gettin/transferin stuff w/o authority, tryin to let us use it so she'd come out innocent or it would appear we were part of it ...

im guilty of using stuff from work, our boss told us we can as long as we won't consume the whole thing, but stealing is beside the point ... well, wut do u call someone who gets something from the supply room and transfer the stuff into her own container, then tells me that it was for all of us? if u were in my shoe will u do the same thing? i told the f*ck truth ... but shud i feel guilty bout this?

humor me ...

�FaLLeN|AnGeL� — Fri, 10 Mar 2006 21:17:51 GMT

[ Mood: Amused ]
[ Currently: Playing flip words ]
just find it funny for people to link me to drugs now adays just because i had this zombie look but i can't blame
them coz i do look like one!

before nobody knew i was on drugs, not unless i tell them! but even if i still can afford it, i will never resort into that again ... my life is back in track again and i intend to it keep this way ...

at my age (27), the idea of fun is not about who i was before but more of how i would want to be tomorrow ... i have goals in life, infact i'm so ambitious, but i don't go beyond my means to get to it, i take my life one step @ a time by keeping things simple ... of course i always put GOD first before anything else, unbelievable? now, that's one side u dunno bout me right ... i've been slacking off from attending church and going to prayer meetings which i was inspired so much ...

but to tell u frankly, im insomaniac already, something that started on my highschool days because of trying to meet deadlines for school projects ... im used to sleeping late and waking up early in other words ... these dark circles under my eyes, my eyebags right now, is the result of having insomia and how do i get by killing time? i try to play online games or fix mah pages @ friendster, myspace or hi5 ( drop me a line or make me a testi, don't forget that ok ) ... and to top of it all, i talk to my boyfriend @ msn , gone are the nights now partying off, having a drinking spree ... [b]"deri na ako gimikera."

will u still get curious why i look like a zombie? ask ... before u draw judgement on me

☼this downpour of my thoughts was inspired by shiela, roy and val whom i spent a few hours of chitchat ha "payag" ... cool people to chill with ...☼